|making stuffed peppers..mmm, june 2012|
i miss traveling. i miss connecting with my creative peeps. i even miss connecting with strangers.
i feel a longing today. it's not a sadness really....just a longing...an ache for more of life....and enrichment of it i suppose.
on another note...but i guess not really, because this is about enriching my life as well, is that i have only had meat (fish is included in this) 4 times in several weeks...maybe (at least) 1 1/2 months....two of those times was no hormone/fresh from the farm so to speak deer and bacon.....once was wild alaskan salmon, and the other day i had a craving for spaghetti so i had ground turkey in it...BIG mistake....i was sick all night long. needless to say i don't want meat any time soon. the fact that i haven't been talking about it makes me feel like this time it might stick.....as i have tried many times before to quit eating meat.....this time i have eliminated a lot of dairy too. i gotta say, my skin has never looked healthier (my face have never been the most clear)...maybe it's not eating meat...or maybe it's just eating more veggies (although i was already doing that)......either way i love it.
at first i was losing weight....but now that i have learned some new recipes, added in a lot more beans and grains to my diet, i am back to normal....but i feel lighter, more energized, in a much better mood most days. i feel closer to who i really am. i've never been real comfortable consuming animals. it actually makes me cringe now to think of it...i have zero cravings for it anymore. two of the times i caved was while i was visiting friends and smelled the meat cooking.....so i can't say a slip or two won't happen, but since i cook at home most of the time this is preventable.
my ultimate goal is going vegan, but i'm giving myself and my body time to adjust; plus i have a ton of learning to do when it comes to cooking in a new way....aka not revolving a meal around a slab of meat...yuck. i know, i know...i'm already turning into one of "those" people....whatever that means. (that is what was said to me earlier this week)