FREEDOM

this is my life.
a constant battle to find balance between different areas in my life. the creating always wins out though.

still in the process of clearing out my physical surroundings of 'stuff'. i need room to grow, to move, to breathe, to not worry about these things i own. anyone who knows me well, knows that i move constantly. i get restless. once i get settled, i feel it necessary to move. i don't know why this is. i love having a place of my own, creating a nook that inspires me.....i just hate being closed in....i'd love it if i could have a house with glass walls......i want to see the outside. i crave fresh air, open windows, breezes, birds chirping, smelling flowers......i would wither away if i lived in a city. same goes for clothes....i wear tank tops and flip flops....though i would rather go barefoot all the time. i hate winter because of heavy clothes. i like airy, flowing....open meadows, beach/ocean as far as the eye can see, long roads that lead to anywhere. i think it's about the feeling of freedown...of possibility....of not being held back.

one of the best feelings i've ever had in my life was sky diving. pure ecstatic joy. freedom. giving up a sense of security.....jumping out of an airplane knowing anything could happen....if you've done it as well, you know what i'm talking about....if you never have, then words will never be able to express how amazing the experience is.

i'm off to goodwill to give away more 'stuff'.