Thursday, May 7, 2009

FREEDOM

this is my life.
a constant battle to find balance between different areas in my life. the creating always wins out though.

still in the process of clearing out my physical surroundings of 'stuff'. i need room to grow, to move, to breathe, to not worry about these things i own. anyone who knows me well, knows that i move constantly. i get restless. once i get settled, i feel it necessary to move. i don't know why this is. i love having a place of my own, creating a nook that inspires me.....i just hate being closed in....i'd love it if i could have a house with glass walls......i want to see the outside. i crave fresh air, open windows, breezes, birds chirping, smelling flowers......i would wither away if i lived in a city. same goes for clothes....i wear tank tops and flip flops....though i would rather go barefoot all the time. i hate winter because of heavy clothes. i like airy, flowing....open meadows, beach/ocean as far as the eye can see, long roads that lead to anywhere. i think it's about the feeling of freedown...of possibility....of not being held back.

one of the best feelings i've ever had in my life was sky diving. pure ecstatic joy. freedom. giving up a sense of security.....jumping out of an airplane knowing anything could happen....if you've done it as well, you know what i'm talking about....if you never have, then words will never be able to express how amazing the experience is.

i'm off to goodwill to give away more 'stuff'.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

REINVENT IT

yep. sometimes you just gotta put a bucket on your head.

when the usual uses and habits of something get stale, come up with a new invention for an old thing. best kind of recycling. and trust me, these kids thought i was a god when i said use them for hats.

Monday, May 4, 2009

GO ON WITH YA BAD SELF


sassy bridesmaids and bride
Originally uploaded by celisa
speak up.
embrace who you are.
value yourself and what your friends bring out in you.
don't compare.
instead of being jealous, let other women's beauty inspire you and make you feel proud to be a woman.
own who you are.
surround yourself with positive strong vivacious women. i do.

Sunday, May 3, 2009

REJOICE



you are alive.
right here.
right now.
in this moment.
rejoice in it. embrace it.
give all you have to this second, this minute, this hour, this day.

Wednesday, April 29, 2009

IDEAS COME AT THE STRANGEST TIME

I am guest blogging at Michelle's blog while her and David are off honeymooning this week. Funny, because I rarely post on my own. I usually let the words come to me rather than force an idea for a blog. I'll write more on this today on her blog......strangely enough I just had an idea. :)

Sunday, April 19, 2009

SUNNY SIDE OF LIFE



I am listening to the Grateful Dead station on Sirius, drinking a Black and Tan, and contemplating how clear my mind and heart are getting the more I get rid of. Yesterday was spent doing some epic cleaning and clearing out. I hung curtain rods and vibrant colorful sheer fabric....which is what i tend to do to save money instead of spending an insane amount of money on curtains, and this way I can change out "curtains" depending on my mood and the season. The yellow, orange, green, and red striped fabric looks amazing with the freshly painted green kitchen wall. (pics coming soon)

I have learned by example from my old roommate Michelle that caddy cornering furniture warms up a room...it's inviting and so much 'softer' to the eye. Plus, it gives a 'flare' to your rooms that otherwise is lost. So, I caddy cornered my bed today in the hopes that sleep becomes more inviting rather than tossing and turning.

Michelle's wedding is coming up in a few days and I can't help but think about the directions we choose to travel in life. Some fall into a pattern of thinking that life just happens to us, that all the bad circumstances and what not make us a victim of these unfortunate events. Yes, unfortunate things happen...but we choose our reactions. We choose where we go from there.

I think we pick up habits, good or bad, to mask emotions inside of us we would rather not deal with. We go shopping, we drink, we continue to choose the wrong person in love, we eat too much or not enough, we watch excessive amounts of tv to distract ourselves from the fact our lives are boring or not what we planned...etc etc....the list goes on. BUT we can choose the good habits too....we can pretend we are not stressed until we actually become less anxious...we can clean when we are upset, we can paint a wall green to evoke happy feelings when we wake up to make coffee every morning, we can learn to value the simple things of life rather than pine after more and more...we can use mason jars as vases (which in my opinion are WAY better than some store bought expensive one), we can pick wildflowers, we can gather with friends to cook dinner instead of lamenting on the fact we don't have money to go out to eat......

life is a constant journey of growth. of change. of embracing who you are and those you love. it's a letting go of the things that hinder that growth. we become who we are by understanding life is what we make it. we choose it. so i raise my glass to michelle and david, and all of you out there, in the hopes that we can always see the 'sunny side of life' in whatever path we choose to go down.